the process, the gory details and all that stuff - part I

upon finding out we are finally pregnant, several people asked us about how we got to this point. several people didn't know we conceived through IVF and even more people didn't even know we were having such difficulty getting pregnant. so, we started telling our story to those that were interested and then i realized, i should also be explaining things over here too.

last we left you, our insurance benefits for fertility treatments had run out. if we wanted to try another IVF treatment or any fertility treatment, it would all be out of pocket less the medication. after calculating, it roughly came to around $20,000 to do just one prep and transfer - JUST ONE! if it were to fail again, we'd be out $20,000+ and with still no baby! unfortunately, with us just closing and moving into the new house, that was totally out of reach for us. but there was another option that we had yet to know about until we consulted with our fertility doctor.

our clinic calls it the Shared Risk Program. the program is fairly simple. you apply to get in and assuming you are eligible, you get approved and pay the one time fee. this one time fee allows for you and your partner to have an unlimited amount of cycles until you either run out of embryos, you can't take the heartache anymore, or the doctors conclude that it's just not going to happen this way. should any of those scenarios be the case, you are refunded your money, less the cost of medicine and office visits.

it sounded like it was just what we needed. unfortunately, we still didn't have the funds to make it happen. it would still still cost about the same around $20,000+. a lot of money that we still didn't have. so, we decided, we'd take a break till we could figure out what to do and how to either get the money or somehow deal with possibility that we may never have children of our own.

a long break and a lot of prayers ensued.