new year, new hope

happy 2013... or will it be?

it's a new year and i'm hoping, praying, wishing, begging for/to God for a better and more promising year.  aren't we all though?

husband and i rang in the new year with our friends, t & w, in atlantic city. it wasn't crazy, it wasn't too quiet. it was just right and what i needed.

on the casino floor at revel

the holidays had been really rough, as only one can imagine it would be for someone that's gone through what i went through last year. i tried my best to tough it out and try to get into the holiday spirit, but i just couldn't get into it. i couldn't even bring myself to put up any decorations. it didn't help that others around me were worried about the most menial little things too.

people kept worrying about what to get each other for gifts, what they were going to cook for christmas dinner, who they were going to invite, etc. they worried about all the usual stuff i suppose most people worry about during the holidays. and then there was me...

and the only thing that i could think about or worry about every single second of every day was my ability or lack thereof to conceive a child of our own. it really put the holidays and what they're really supposed to be about into perspective for me. i only wish others had gotten the opportunity to remember and realize what i did.

but i digress...

here's to hoping 2013 will bring more happiness and less sadness to all.... especially us. cheers to a new year!