Sunday, March 23, 2014
16 weeks, ugly socks and a wedding
it was a scary week. we went to the OBGYN for an emergency sonogram because my stomach pains weren't going away no matter what i did. i called the doctor to schedule the appointment to make sure everything was okay. turns out that i just pulled a muscle pretty bad when i slipped. tylenol, rest and slip-proof socks is what the doctor ordered. fyi, slip-proof socks for kiddos are adorable. slip-proof socks for adults are not.
this saturday, March 22, 2014, we attended our first wedding sporting my babies bump! i hadn't really realized how many of our friends are either pregnant now, on their second or third pregnancy, are trying to get pregnant or have all the kids they want. it was nice to see all the new families and families-to-be around us. the food was a typical chinese banquet style with about 10 courses that consisted of mostly seafood. it was so hard to limit myself with all that delicious food in front of me. i love seafood so much, but during pregnancy you're supposed to eat it in moderation - some docotrs say no more than 12 ounces a week! such torture!
we stayed until about 11pm-ish and i was exhausted. this morning, mark and i laughed about how we couldn't even make it to midnight! not too long ago, we would have stayed till the lights were turning on and the DJ was packing up. we would have been congregating with those that were left standing and wondering where the after party was to drink and party until our bodies just couldn't take it anymore. my how times have changed.
i finally got a good night's rest last night as well. i hadn't been sleeping well because i haven't been able to get comfortable because now that i have to sleep on my side, my hands get numb. i'm usually a back sleeper. from time to time, i'll end up on my back in the middle of the night but then wake up suddenly because i can't breathe - the twins are apparently putting pressure on my diaphragm and lungs. so i went on a search for a solution and found the Leachco Back N Shape Adjustable Maternity Pillow Set. it's a 2 pillow set where 1 pillow in the shape of a wedge supports my belly and the other pillow supports my back and prevents me from slipping back onto my back in the middle of the night. the 2 pillows can detach and adjust as my belly grows and when the babies are born, the back pillow part can be used like a boppy feeding pillow.
i'm still getting used to using it and my hand still gets numb from time to time, but so far so good. i'll have to talk to the doctor tomorrow at our next visit about the numbness. i'm hoping it's not carpel tunnel as i've read on many forums about this same problem!
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
since January 18, 2014
i was going to do a weekly updates thing on my pregnancy, but i kept pushing it back... just in case. but i still kept a handwritten account of things week-by-week since i hit 7 weeks. for your viewing and laughing pleasure... you might have to click on the photos to enlarge them.
baby A's video!
Saturday, March 8, 2014
Monday, February 10, 2014
something's brewing
i'm back! and in a couple of weeks, with hope, i will be back with something pretty spectacular to announce!
stay tuned!
stay tuned!
Saturday, March 16, 2013
strike 3, we're out
yeah, again. it happened again.
i wish i could say it hurt less, but it didn't. i wish i could say that somehow i expected it to happen, but i honestly didn't. i wish i could say that it didn't phase me, but it totally did. but mostly, i wish i could say that our little ones are still growing and their little hearts are still beating, but they're not. yes, there were 2 little angels. God has them now, with our other 3 angels. 5 angels total.
i wish i could be more optimistic to try again, but i'm not. the fact is, our insurance won't cover anymore cycles. we've maxed out our benefits for this. so, if we want to try again, everything would be out of pocket. out of empty pockets because, well, we just closed on our new house. our new house that we started building last summer in anticipation of our first little angel. the little angel that's now sleeping in God's arms with her 4 other brothers and sisters. insert waterfall of tears here.
i wish we could afford to try again. i wish we could find a way to afford to try again. i wish i didn't have PCOS. i wish i could just miraculously be able to conceive naturally so we wouldn't have to worry about being able to afford trying again through IVF. i wish God would just give us another chance.
* * * * *
this blog was supposed to be about our little miracles. it was supposed to be about our journey to build our family from a party of 2 to a party of more. it was supposed to be a happy little blog that inspired others to keep trying for their little miracles too. but we have yet to have any little miracles.
so, for now, this blog will be on hiatus. i personally need to heal, emotionally and physically. and well, i'm sure y'all are sick of reading about our heartache. i'm sure tired of writing about it.
so, farewell for now. i hope one day i'll be back with much better news and happier entries. till then, take care and may God bless you all.
i wish i could say it hurt less, but it didn't. i wish i could say that somehow i expected it to happen, but i honestly didn't. i wish i could say that it didn't phase me, but it totally did. but mostly, i wish i could say that our little ones are still growing and their little hearts are still beating, but they're not. yes, there were 2 little angels. God has them now, with our other 3 angels. 5 angels total.
i wish i could be more optimistic to try again, but i'm not. the fact is, our insurance won't cover anymore cycles. we've maxed out our benefits for this. so, if we want to try again, everything would be out of pocket. out of empty pockets because, well, we just closed on our new house. our new house that we started building last summer in anticipation of our first little angel. the little angel that's now sleeping in God's arms with her 4 other brothers and sisters. insert waterfall of tears here.
i wish we could afford to try again. i wish we could find a way to afford to try again. i wish i didn't have PCOS. i wish i could just miraculously be able to conceive naturally so we wouldn't have to worry about being able to afford trying again through IVF. i wish God would just give us another chance.
* * * * *
this blog was supposed to be about our little miracles. it was supposed to be about our journey to build our family from a party of 2 to a party of more. it was supposed to be a happy little blog that inspired others to keep trying for their little miracles too. but we have yet to have any little miracles.
so, for now, this blog will be on hiatus. i personally need to heal, emotionally and physically. and well, i'm sure y'all are sick of reading about our heartache. i'm sure tired of writing about it.
so, farewell for now. i hope one day i'll be back with much better news and happier entries. till then, take care and may God bless you all.
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